Pwnsomed

Epiphany

Fri, 22 Jun 2012 13:21:00 -0400

I think now is a time in life when you realise there is a bigger scarier world out there and your parents can’t always protect you from it. You have to go make a name for yourself and battle your own dragons. Make a difference in this big scary world :3

Worthless.

Tue, 12 Jun 2012 22:18:29 -0400

So this guy i liked (notice the d) asked me to help him with this cover thing, and i agreed but he’s never heard me sing at all. And since i pretty much stalk his facebook, i saw videos of his singing and lemme tell ya, FLAT. Nothing special.

So i thought ya know it would be fun, just me and him jamming..

Then he asked me to send him a demo of my singing as he said he “believed i could sing” so i did and turns out he didnt like it.

And i sent that same tape to 4 of my closest friends who would give me honest opinions and they loved it so i thought i was worthy to send to the “big guy”.

So now i feel so worthless cuz i really like singing and people always thought i could sing.

Moreover, he didnt tell me that there was a third party involved who sang lead and i was gonna be backup. Sheesh. Nice man, nice.

He said ” you can work on it if you want to” which is the nice way of saying “forget it”.

Douche.

He asked in the first place.

My mom was right, dun mess with these people…

Who needs him.

Certainly not me.

Im way too busy to care right?

But yeah i kinda do care…

I just came back from Korea 2 days ago and im off to church camp tmr.

Needa getaway from all this.

I feel so emo.

Who needs him..

~Chrissy

P.s. douche
P.s.s. he sucks at singing anyway

More withdrawal syndrome

Tue, 24 Apr 2012 10:48:04 -0400

This is the anti climax post. Ahhhh
Tiger babies is over it was pretty epic. We actually pulled it off!

I’m so proud of everyone.
Ya know, I’ll never look at the school the same way again.

Next, my sailing coach quit.
He was like a friend to me.
Double whammy huh?

So I dunno what kind of emotional state I’m in. Currently got mugging to distract me ^^

Btw, random qn : can you just be friends with a guy?

Hmmm….

~Chrissy

Tiger Babies.

Thu, 12 Apr 2012 10:32:21 -0400

Okay, it’s been so long since I used my iPad to type a post!
Wheeeeeeeeee!

Anyway, the 74th anniversary production is next week and we have been tirelessly rehearsing for it but I feel like it is still really messy because it is such a huge beautiful show. It would be great if we can pull it off!

Tomorrow Is the very first night full dress rehearsal. I hope it doesn’t rain! We have been getting showers for the past few rehearsals so we were unable to do the outdoor scenes…

I’m really stoked for tmr!
First Night Rehearsal!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHH!

It’s gonna be scary too! Lotsa pressure!

Okay! Immature go study for geog now, SA1 is in 2 weeks!!!

~Chrissy

Unending fatigue.

Mon, 02 Apr 2012 11:29:09 -0400

Gosh, this year has been going crazy! Sec 3 sucks!

Everyday we stay back until 6 plus sometimes 7.
The loads of homework,assignments, tests we have to study for the next day.

I just feel its a never ending cycle!
I dont even get my 10hours sleep they say we are supposed to have.
I think i get like 6 and a half everyday.

So recently i have been sick and missed some exams. Then my friends who already took them are all nonchalant about answering ur queries on the test. Not like i want them to give me answers but to clarify what topics are tested.

Here u are all shagged,fidgety,eye twitchy, sleepy, desperate and they just ignore ur texts… Wow..man, such great pals i have…

I think i’ve done enough, i’ve done all i can.

Leave it in the hands of the Lord.

~Chrissy

This is my electric guitar

Mon, 05 Mar 2012 09:40:59 -0500

This is my electric guitar

Gotta haircut :3

Mon, 05 Mar 2012 09:39:10 -0500

Gotta haircut :3

Today sucked.

Wed, 22 Feb 2012 06:49:57 -0500

Today was such a sucky day.

I failed my social studies common test.
Only 3 ppl in class failed and i failed.

I broke down and cried.

That’s okay.
Life goes on.
Without failures there is no success right?!

Trying to keep my head high.

It’s okay.

Breathe….breathe…breathe…

Happiness.

Sun, 19 Feb 2012 09:04:47 -0500

What does that word mean to you?
What does it mean to anybody?

I think that happiness is definitely subjective.

A text from ur special someone on valentine’s day could be happiness.

A good grade in school could be happiness.

Your favourite song comes on the radio could be happiness.

There are so many things. Even the small things count.

For me right now, i feel happiness around people.
Like i feed off their demeanor and aura.
The vibe i get.

For example. I have teachers who totally suck at teaching but they are wonderful people. That gives me inspiration to learn. It feels better knowing that i have someone who looks out for me and that makes me happier about learning from them.

On the other hand i have teachers who are so “by the book” when it comes to their teaching methods And all they care about is homework, assignments, formulas, assessments….etc. It is very sickening. I Dun feel like learning from them.

I know that all teachers mean well and they want their kids to excel academically but would it kill ya to have some basic interaction?!

I like teachers who are my FRIENDS.
I like teachers who i can RELATE TO.

Yea, there is a strict line of demarkation but it actually helps a student academically when there is this mutual friendship or bond.

Students feel better learning from a friend than from a robot ya know…
I dun mean to be pessimistic but that’s just how it is :)

Oh, there is no sailing for like 1 whole month which im quite bummed about :(

It makes me sad.

Very sad.

Sailing is kinda like a drug to me.
Makes me high and happy.
HEY! Link to previous point. Sailing is a happiness of mine.
However, sometimes i wonder if it is the sailing or the guy there that makes me happy.

Oh! On an even brighter side, dad finally allowed me to get an electric guitar! Im so siked!

Hhahahahahahha!

Guitars are my happiness too.
Heeheehee
Took lots of convincing.
I’ll pay for it myself too anyway.

School’s kinda lifeless now.
I just wanna curl up into a cave and sleep for as long as i want to.

Goodnight.

~Chrissy

"The moon should not only belong to men in rockets."

Fri, 10 Feb 2012 18:16:22 -0500

“The moon should not only belong to men in rockets.”

Just A Dream.

Wed, 08 Feb 2012 10:09:56 -0500

It’s in the mists of exam periods but i still bloggggg!!!

So, that “head over heels” guy i was talking about. Turns out he was just a player. I mean like i never like dated him or anything it’s just that he was just fooling around with me.

Jerk.

Hmph. I’m not heartbroken right now. Im sorta on the fence.

He’s like totally ignoring me.

Jerk.

Ya know what, forget it.
He wasn’t my type in the first place.

“I’m way to good for you”

Just gonna lie low for a while.
Hang out with my other friends.
Gah, who needs guys!

My eyelids are drooping.. Night

~Chrissy

"My impression of you just shifted and took of in the complete opposite direction."

Wed, 08 Feb 2012 10:03:39 -0500

“My impression of you just shifted and took of in the complete opposite direction.”

Cutie pie.

Wed, 08 Feb 2012 10:02:49 -0500

Cutie pie.

Head Over Heels.

Sun, 29 Jan 2012 09:47:24 -0500

Hey!

It has been A WHILEEEEE!
I’m so busy nowadays. school is crazy. i miss 2011, we could slack like crazy!
this year is so demanding! I hate it.

Yeah if you already didn’t know, i bought a guitar last December and been playing ever since. It’s such a great outlet to de-stress. I love it.

It’s quite addictive. It is one of the few things that brings me joy.

Centrestage is so awesome now. This year’s production is gonna be quite epic.

We are in the mists of preparing it.
SO MANY LINESSS.

It is also stressful balancing school, CCA,tuition, remedial, church, HOMEWORK and have sailing on top of that.

so sailing is every sat and is like the whole day. well…it’s from like 9-1.30? but it Knocks me out the whole day.
It is tiring but all worth it. It is the highlight of my week! Like everyday i would count down to it.

Speaking of sailing, this week was epic!
The wind was quite strong. Thankfully!
We were hiking. And i mean like all the way…HORIZONTALLY!

But i think this week was the most tiring and i got quite hurt. Couple times with my own BOOM.

But the main one was when i was Hiking all the way on a close haul and this other dude comes out of NOWHERE on a beam reach, doesn’t even warn me…a “WATCH OUT” could have been helpful! And the end of his boom bashed into my left ear and the back of my head.

I lost control of my boat and that hurt so much! Then MY boom whacked the front of my head. Wahhhh…damn!
so pain. But it’s okay…i have one red ear but that is okay….He said sorry.

But that’s not the main point.
So basically the main point of this post is to tell you that i have this HUGE crush. And im falling for him MAJORLY.
Even more than the past.
He’s really sweet and i talk to him like how i talk to my friends.

It’s so natural! I have never felt like that before…
Hmm…

Btw, i saw my old crush at church today. He sat 2 rows behind and i didn’t even know it.

I smiled at him when he walked past but he ignored me.
Ah, who cares about him anymore. :)

So about this new guy, he has a GF but like i feel like he’s sending me mixed signals. I dunno how to interoperate them.

My friend thinks he’s interested!
But like it’s an on-off thing.
Hmm… I’m confused.

But now it’s like he is OFF.
Not replying my texts or even sometimes in person, he ignores me which is kinda getting on my nerves.

I feel like giving attitude back…
Hmm…i’ll hold back for now but i’ll see how it goes… sigh*

Nights…tomorrow’s monday again :(
SCHOOL SUCKS.

HEEHEE ;)
~Chrissy

Emo Quote

Sat, 21 Jan 2012 20:42:15 -0500

Im just gonna stop trying and resist like i always do.

"Please, this ain’t even jealousy. She ain’t got a thing on me."

Sun, 15 Jan 2012 02:08:28 -0500

“Please, this ain’t even jealousy.
She ain’t got a thing on me.”

- Cher Lloyd

Not my day.

Sat, 14 Jan 2012 02:16:56 -0500

Sailing was something i would look forward to the whole week but now i’m having mixed feelings.

I was undoubtably the WORST sailor today. I think cuz i got a lotta things on my mind. I’m absolutely stressed.

I wanted to let of some steam but there was literally NO WIND.

Yesterday was so damn tiring. Practicing shuttle run and standing broad jump. Then had CCA till like 6.
We like had to walk around and crawl on the grass in the quadrangle.

Im piled high with hw and im packed this weekend.

Im drained…

Physically and mentally tired.

On the verge of a breakdown.

But i know there is no use complaining abt it but it would make me feel better.

I feel the stress..

This year is gonna be crazy…

Im really really busy…

Mental breakdown..

I think im also hyperventilating.

I need God’s grace and guidance.

I trust in him.

You have a plan for me. :)

Take care.
~Chrissy

Sunday after church :)

Sun, 08 Jan 2012 00:45:00 -0500

Sunday after church :)

I love sailing :)

Sat, 07 Jan 2012 05:34:04 -0500

I love sailing :)

C Squad

Sat, 07 Jan 2012 03:25:00 -0500

So, school has been quite depressing these past few days.

My class was brand new and the teachers have high expectations so it is really awkward and strange.. It actually irks me .

Topper Continuation was the only thing i was looking forward to.

Everyday i would countdown the days to Saturday.

Was SOOO looking forward to the rangers reuniting.

So, yesterday, i was super excited to meet up with them.

Hurhur.

Then our coach said he’s canceling on us and he’s sorry.

So, he got a replacement coach whom we know and is not that bad to take over.

When we reunited, it was super fun. We made up 5/8 ppl in our class today.

And the coach today was surprisingly patient and nice, plus he joked around too.

He didn’t even yell at me at all!
Like total opposite of the original coach!

The wind was so fast! We sailed a beam reach course.

I hiked so much! It was even more than during the storm!

So awesome! Haha! Totally made my week better.

They all capsized But i didn’t, hurhur!

Except one point when my teammate’s boom hooked on to the back of my lifejacket and pulled me backwards into the water.

Then my boat drifted away so i had to swim to catch it.

There is this boat manager who rents the boats out to us and helps us launch them.

He is super scary when he yells. He has this sarcastic fierce persona but is actually quite a nice guy!

So the funny part is when he scolds the children in a really loud fierce sarcastic way for example : “OI! IKAN BILLIS! U CANNOT SEE AH?! COME COME I EXCHANGE MY SPECS WITH YOURS!”

Damn funny man, he calls them “ikan billis” which means tiny fish? I think?

Haha, met some new ppl today too.

Haha, im really tired. The boat is really heavy when u take it out cuz there is so much water in it. But when launching, it is dry so it’s really light.

Ahhh, so fun… I think i caught a cold though. Gahhhh, falling sick :(
Worth it though. :)

Got bruises too but ALL WORTH IT.

Coach! You better come next week!
We miss you :)
~Chrissy